P.B.I.M 2010

Something woke me up at 4 a.m.
Probably my neck or maybe the sudden downpour..

First thing that came into my mind -Marathon -
My neck, the bad weather, well... the fact that I love sleeping more than anything in the world =P
I was about to give up the marathon
Until I saw the half marathon runners from my kitchen window..
I was impressed...
'Running in the rain looks fun!'

Thanks to the misleading information by the emcees
I started a few minutes later than the other... >.<

Being a 'lone runner' wasn't that bad after all...
With the breeze and the rain drops hitting on your face as you speed up..
True enough, running in the rain was fun..!!
I was enjoying the sunrise throughout the journey..
Looking at the sky change colours was magical!!

At last, The finish line!!
Man...was I excited!!!

The 'cheerleading' squad scared me a little though.. haha
I can't seem to figure out what they were trying to say but I do know they were screaming.. something....... =S

10km. One hour. Satisfaction C=
PBIM ROX!!

Flawed. Too Flawed...

Even the toughest ice will one day melt into nothing but only a puddle...
I was wrong
Forcing a smile is not as easy as I thought..

I admire them..
Pretty faces
Brain of a genius

...... everything that I can only dream to have

'No one is perfect' they say...
But I'm too flawed
Too flawed to be valuable in anyone's eyes.......

Another piece of Snow Puzzle....

Was roaming QB alone today...
I have a habit of observing people (NOT... in a creepy way)
And then my mind started working..
A part of my memory came back to me

Being away from home for the first time for such a long time..
Honestly, it's scary
You can't imagine how long spent praying
the night before I went to AIMST.

Not long after,
there I was
All alone in a brand new place.
Then,
I met her. My roommate. My first new friend in AIMST.

We had a great time together.
I told her everything. My studies. My family. My crush. EVERYTHING.
Just when I thought I found someone I can trust
Things turned ugly as she started to blend in with my friends.
She refused to talk me. It was like she's trying to go against everything I do.

I was heart broken. Scared.
The thought that I'm losing all my friends.
That I'm alone.

I cried. Almost everyday.
I wanted to call my parents.
But something in me kept telling me not to.
The last thing I want to do is to worry my parents more.

So,
I kept everything to myself.
Not willing to trust anyone ANYMORE.
I remember,
One of classmate told me
'If the friend is a true friend. He/She will come back to you eventually. And you two will be much more closer than before.'

I started to rebuild my confidence after some time.
But I lost trust in everyone.
I practically closed myself from the world.
I don't feel like myself now.

True enough,
she changed in the 2nd term.
And yes,
we became closer to each other than before.

I'm glad that I have her back.
I really am. C=
But, deep down inside.
I just can't convince myself to trust anymore........

Don't even THINK about it!

Let Me In
'Innocence dies, Abby doesn't'

It sounds catchy doesn't it?
Even the posters are...

Trust me..
This is the last movie you want to watch
EVER!

The same scene keeps repeating itself
over and
over and
over and
over and
OVER AGAIN!


It was like watching Twilight Jr.
with more blood and violence.....

The fact that I'm watching the love story of a 12 year old boy and his vamp girlfriend
Is seriously disturbing to the MAX!

I was practically waiting for the end of the movie to come..

Do or Die.....

One week....
Thousand over pages..
And only ONE BRAIN.....!!

Repeating the same routine...
Every single day...
For One WHOLE week....

1. Wake up to 'Spongebob alarm' (shhhhh....haha)
2. Get dress
3. Drag myself to breakfast and then...
4. TO WAR!!!!
5. Back to sharpening 'weapons' >.< 6. Repeat steps 1 to 5. AT LAST!!! It is over!!!!!!!!!! This week maybe stressful and tiring.. But, who knows... I discovered loads of Beauuuuutiful things in the way.... C= Roomies got closer together.... Gives the feeling of - Home - *hearts*



A day before Maths paper...
This was exactly what I saw when I laid my head back to rest my neck.......

I don't know about you..
But I find the colours really pretty!

That was when...
My roomies and I started to take photos of...
The Sky~ hahaha


(These are all from my phone. Excuse the poor quality. >.<)

New kind of Phobia?

I know it looks like I didn't mind much.
But deep down inside..
It hurts a lot.

Reminding me that I'm
Not belonged,
Not important,
Over and over and over again..

Yet,
I had to act like
Smile and celebrate along with the others
Every Single Time...

Sad to say,
such a happy celebration is now


Officially


A Phobia to Me......

Behind the faces....

Sometimes,
I regret getting good grades in primary.
Relatives, Teachers, even colleagues of my parents....
They will be expecting a lot from you....

I didn't manage to be in the top 5 since secondary school....
Things changed...
The way they look at me is totally different.

But,
What they didn't know was...
That gave me pressure....
Tore down my confidence..
It is like I'm nothing in their eyes anymore.

Why are people all so realistic?
It is either you have the LOOKS or the BRAIN...
People without any of the two are NOTHING in their eyes..
That is so PATHETIC...
People who are AVERAGE are still HUMANS!!!